Sunday, June 14, 2009

F4I1!!!1!!!!1!1!!.... And other stuff.

Hey everybody,

So yeah, seems I didn't make good on my promise to post once a week. But in my defense, I've had blogger's cramp. ( Or blogger's block. Whatever. ) I've seem to have run out of things to talk about, and yet with my life style, I should be writing your eyes off. ( As opposed to talking your ears off of course. ^w^ ) Maybe it's because I don't know where to start writing. Also, this is a new beginning and I hate that. The fact that I had to quit my first blog really pissed of. ( Again, thanks you M$. ) I sorta had my identity set over there and now I feel I have to start over. It's like I'm creating a sort of pressure on myself.

Also, the fact that I have to learn how blogger works bites as well. Don't get me wrong, it's nice place... if you're ├╝ber good at HTML. Kinda why I liked MSN spaces. It was cookie cuter, but darn it, it didn't take long before you got used to what you wanted to do. But they changed a couple of things there though and I'm sorta back to square one. Oh well, I guess I've ranted long enough.

So what's been going on in my life. Well nothing much if not a lot of things. ( Yeah, I know that doesn't make sense. But keep in mind that I don't feel like everything in my life is blog worthy or actually all that exciting. ) Since last time I blogged though, I've had a lot more courage to go out now. ( Dressed up I mean. ) I'm able to take the bus and subway without giving a second thought to people. I guess this started during my vacation when I went on a shopping spree while I was dressed up. Alone.

It's something that I had planned for a while now and never got around to do it. You see I've decided that my best chance of survival was to do this during a week day when most people are usually at work and not shopping. But it's quite surprising to see the number of people in mall during the week day. It's not crazy like the evenings or weekends. But there is a lot of people. Kinda makes you wonder how they get their money. In any case, I got to the mall and everything was quite uneventful. The clerks were very courteous with me. The girl at Aditionnelle was very nice, but that's probably due to the fact that her brother is actually a dragqueen. So seeing me wasn't much of a problem for her. Still, points for her. ^-^ I guess people were probably going: 'WTF!' in their minds, but I was too busy jubilating to notice. Also, I wasn't looking at them to see or get a reaction. I just went there existing like anybody would do. ( Don't know if what I just said makes sense, but it does to me. I guess I could extrapolate eventually. ) That being said, I tried to look my best though.

And I guess you're wondering about why I'm comfortable in the bus now. Well, it's because to go there, I have to take two buses. So four buses in total. You see, before I wanted to go someplace dressed, I always used to grab a cab. But it got expensive. Especially if you're going for a night out and you spend half of your money on cab fair. ( Of course, I always take a cab back home after a night out. For me, that's just common sense. Especially at 3am in the morn. ) I remember, it would cost me 50$ just to go down town. So for my outing at the mall. I decided I would take the bus. I figured I'd kill two birds with one stone. Get the courage to go out at a public place that's not the village, and also get the courage to grab the bus and subway.

Since then, anytime I've wanted to dress and I needed to go some place public, I just did. I've went to breakfast for my friends birthday up in a restaurant that most northern to the island. ( For those of you who know Montreal, that very far form the village. ^w^ ) And for another friend's birthday, I actually walked into a pub. Yeah, I'm still surprised about that one. ^-^ So more and more, I'm actually getting the courage to be myself where ever I want to be. Now if I can only get the courage to go into the bathroom. :P

I'll try to do more posts soon. Although that's highly unlikely. I mean Ghostbusters: The Videogame is coming out this tuesday and you can bet your paycheck that I'm going to get my grubby little mitts on it. Plus I'm going to need a new Xbox Live membership card. So I'll be buying those tuesday. Also my rents are coming over the week after. I can't wait to see them, but they're going to be here for like three weeks or something and during that time, I have to put my feminin ways on the side. They accept it, but they're not to see me dressed though. I just hope one day they'll be ok with it. Anyways, I've typed your eyes off too much already. I need to go now.

Until then, this is me signing off.